Today, let’s talk about a dirty little secret of mine – Perfectionism. I’ve been observing myself for a while now, and I’ve come to realize that my perfectionist is getting out of control. So, I think it’s time to share about it. Firstly, let’s have a look at the accurate definition in Wikipedia…
Perfectionism is a personality trait characterized by a person’s striving for flawlessness and setting excessively high performance standards, accompanied by overly critical self-evaluations and concerns regarding others’ evaluations.
To put it simply, if you become obsessed with imperfections in your stuff (or sometimes, others’ stuff), when you wanna fix it almost immediately and once you’ve done it, you enjoy the pleasure for fixing it, then it’s a nice sign of perfectionism. At least, that’s how it started for me.
Last year, when I was a newbie coder (I still am, but for now, let’s just say relatively), I tried to get into a hackathon (conducted by “savethehacker“), and I screwed it up. Looking back at those days, I feel like I was quite stupid back then. I had no idea about app-development. Despite of that, I tried climbing something big, without even knowing that I’m gonna fall sometime soon. And, I did. I wasn’t selected. I got a reply after the deadline, that my app couldn’t compete with those 30 teams that got selected.
Hackathon is idea-centric!
Honestly, getting an idea and describing it to the organizers is the most difficult part. Because, that’s what’s gonna get you inside any hackathon! (and yeah, it applies to all hackathons). The organizers should feel confident about you, that your app is worthy to get part in their hackathon. This, I figured out later that year. So, idea matters! Once you get it, you’re only a few days away from winning. And, if you don’t win, it’s certain that you screwed up somewhere. Now, getting back to my story…
One fine day, during my semester exams (last month), I got an invitation mail from the same fellas, saying that they’ve come back with a much larger hackathon this time, where up to a 100 teams have the chance to get selected. I gotta do something, right? The problem is that I’m quite slow. I don’t get an idea whenever I needed one. I just think of the situation once, and it pops sometime later (sometimes, even after a few days, but it definitely pops!). So, I “not getting an idea” was an obsession for a while.
I’m involved in Mozilla for a few days now. So, I’m just gonna talk about my experience today…
How did it start?
I remembered Manish’s advertising about Mozilla sometime ago (well, if you’re also planning to get involved, then I suggest his post, which nails down the whole thing precisely, because this is just my experience with the community). When I had a chat with him, he said these exact words, “Mozilla is the most welcoming community I’ve ever seen!”. So, I joined Mozilla, by which I mean I signed up for Bugzilla & Mozillians which are pretty much enough for the start. I later realized that the former is for actually doing stuff, while the latter is for showing it off!
“I told you! You should’ve listened to yesterday’s result! What happened to you? You always trust in chance! And, it did tell you that you weren’t supposed to write the exam today.”, he exclaimed.
(He was pointing to my usual simulated tossing whenever I get confused in making a choice. As I believe only in chance, (and as I’m lazy to actually toss a coin) I use the
pseudo random number generator in Python (in a loop) which selects a choice based on a million runs…)
“Come on, I came here just to give it a try. After all, it’s MBA stuff. I felt like this might be easy. I had also thought that I might get lucky today…”, I said.
I know, it’s been a long time since I blogged. I’ve been busy. Well nowadays, most of the time I’ll be involved in physics & coding (sometimes, I do play games). But, I always feel guilty that I don’t share most of the interesting stuff I get to know every month.
Two things happened last week. Firstly, I took a seminar. And, it’s my first time. I also spoke English (officially) for the first time – I mean, in front of a crowd.
I don’t know. My body starts resonating whenever I see a group of people staring at me – not exactly “fear to speak” in front of people. Instead, it’s an uncomfortable feeling inside that asks a lot of what-if questions like, “What if others ignore your speech?”, “What if you fail?”, “What if you get the crap out of everyone?”, “What if …” all such nonsense. Well, that explains something. In my two years of college life, I’ve spoken a lot in the internet than in the real (social) world. Okay, fear it is.
A few months back, I wrote a review on “Gravity”. You know, it was a great experience. I did really enjoy watching it. All about space, satellites, orbits, stuff like that, along with some screw-ups like Sandra Bullock’s one-woman show, George Clooney’s unnecessary death (How can I forget? It’s unforgivable!), so & so. I didn’t love the story as much as I loved its visual effects in the movie. Anyways, it was nice! But, I’m quite sure it doesn’t even come closer to my long-awaited “Interstellar”!!!
Yesterday, I watched Interstellar. I’ve been waiting a long time for this thing to show up. Being one of my favorite directors, Christopher Nolan’s style exceeded my expectations once again. This was totally new! Not only did it rock in the physics of the storyline (I mean, the physics that participated), it was also emotionally touching.
Who am I kidding? It was Kip Thorne who has helped with setting up the plot. He’s a physicist. I bet those guys really knew what they were doing. They’ve put most of the so-far-discovered physics behind gravity (General Relativity, to be specific) into that movie. They’ve created spacecrafts, planets, wormholes, blackholes – they’ve done everything they can to help us visualize those complicated stuff!
Don’t you worry, I’m not here to ruin all your fun! Just a few comments, as I can’t hold myself back…
I guess I’ve already told you about my aerodynamics professor when I talked about my newly found way of memorizing. But, that’s history. It happened during the last semester, it makes use of low speed flow. This time, it’s high speed!
So, today we had our usual aerodynamics class. As usual, I was reading my “Classical Mechanics” book (Well, I don’t feel comfortable taking notes during classes of these kind). Soon, three of us got bored. Our professor is well-known for his amazing habit of copy-pasting stuff (equations & derivations go to the blackboard, paragraphs & history spills outta his mouth, often with the question, “Right?”) – from books like “Fundamentals of Aerodynamics” (by J.D. Anderson – last sem) and “Gas Dynamics” (by E. Radhakrishnan – going on now).
Within a few minutes since the start of his class, we started observing the same “thing”, inferred his activity, smiled at one another, and converged on the same idea…